Now, I really don’t want to sound depressing, but I have to admit that today I am physically down and psychologically? Well, let us say that I am puzzled. Of course, there is very little in my life that escapes my analysis obsession, so these last couple of days are not different and the impact is just an uncontrollable crave for pure sluggishness .
What happened is irrelevant. Important is that sudden zooming out feeling – “hey what has just happened there?” A few moments of reflection and the picture starts forming in my mind. Not even a month ago we all went through a traumatic experience and what is happening right now is the aftermath!
I am not certain if my view of the group has changed or if the group has changed itself, what I know is that I do not see the same dynamics that I used to. People are quieter, there are no smiles and energetic greetings, faces are heavy and loaded with a visible apathy. There is so much insecurity, uncertainty floating in the air that the ambience is toxic, draining and infectious.
We learn about this from books, and movies, and history. The King dies and the court starts crumbling. The gossip starts, perfidy, division, conflict, deceit, insecurity, fear.
Our king died, our leader, and there is no substitute. A winning team is breaking apart